This is a website that details the account of my schizophrenia since it began in 2019 when I first started hearing voices. I have been dealing with extreme symptoms after that. I know clearly that schizophrenia is demonic interference- there are malevolent outside forces in schizophrenia as opposed to the psychiatric view of chemical imbalance or brain disorder. I have lived a very good life and have been a very successful academic student and in my career- I am 47 and have studied engineering in Computer Sc and Electronics both in India and in US. I have worked in the software industry for 15+ years. And have also spent 7+ yrs in nano electronics research. I have been a Vipassana meditator in the tradition of Sri S N Goenka starting in 2001. I am sharing my observations here so others may benefit. What I am experiencing are not delusions but forced states of mind by some external entities. I think this may be true for others as well.

I will be writing down about my symptoms, what I see as demons, how they harm, what is happening in my body and mind, my struggles and everything else. I am going to brainstorm and theorise, use spirituality, and medical science to try to figure out what is going on. Since a lot of unexplained phenomena are happening to me or in me- (psychiatry does not know much and I have tried the meds, they are not helping), I am looking for help. If I go to a neurologist or gynaecologist or any other doctor and tell them physical problems are happening to me due to schizophrenia they just label it as delusions and don’t even check it. This is really bad because beyond the delusions label and the psychosis meds there is really very little medical industry has to offer to schizophrenia patients. I have a lot of physical symptoms due to schizophrenia or demonic harms whatever you want to call them. I feel them in my mind and my body and will post about them in my blogs. I am looking for some doctors to acknowledge this and help me. I am looking for fellow Vipassana meditators to help me spiritually, through insight. I am quite unwell and looking for that unicorn that will come to rescue me. But only if you can believe what I have written- if you can imagine a person in that situation, consider it a reality, and are willing to brainstorm with me, suggest something to help me, I am all ears. Looking forward.

My observations about demons are not based on any religion but objective observation of what is happening around me and in me – in my mind and body. I am not religious at all and don’t have any religious beliefs. However I don’t feel that believing in demonic beings in the world especially in today’s times is abnormal or unscientific in any way. I think what matters is the truth- whatever it is.